Love Story

My Top 25 Taylor Swift Songs 

Hello Lovlies. I'm Jordan Nicole :) I know that this post could rub some people the wrong way. Not every one likes Taylor and that is completely understandable. There isn't anything or anyone that every person is going to like. I however have made it pretty clear on my blog over the years that I love her. Taylor's music has gotten me through so many things in my life and I just think she is an inspiration. In honor of all those times that I have turned to her music when I didn't have anywhere else to turn, here is a list of my top 25 Taylor Swift songs. They range from songs about life, heartbreak, crushes, true love, and mistakes but at their core they all share one thing; they are completely open statements about how it feels to experience those things. They give you something to connect with when you think you are the only person who has ever felt that way. They give you something that shows you aren't alone. At the end of the day Taylor is a real person who has real emotions and she is amazing enough to share those with us in an effort to show us that it is okay to feel things. It is okay to not always be happy. It is okay to fall madly in love more than once. It is okay to forgive. It is okay to not know what you want. It is okay to learn lessons along the way. For that I will always be grateful. 

Taylor Swift Era

A Place In This World

"I don't know what I want, so don't ask me. Cause I'm still trying to figure it out."

Cold As You

"Every smile you fake is so condescending counting all the scars you've made."

Should've Said No

"I can't resist. Before you go tell me this: Was it worth this? Was she worth this?"

Fearless Era

Superstar

"I'm no one special, just another wide eyed girl who's desperately in love with you."

Forever & Always

"I looked in your eyes. Thought I knew you for a minute, now I'm not so sure."

The Best Day

"I know you were on my side, even when I was wrong."

Speak Now Era

Back To December

"And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind. You gave me all your love and all I gave you was 'goodbye'."

Dear John

"You are an expert at 'sorry' and keeping lines blurry. Never impressed by me acing your tests."

Enchanted

"I'm wonderstruck, dancing around all alone. I'll spend forever wondering if you knew."

Innocent

"I hope you remember today is ever too late to be brand me."

Last Kiss

"So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep and I'll feel you forget me like I used to feel you breathe."

Ours

"Your hands are tough but they are where mine belong."

Red Era

Treacherous

"I can't decide if it's a choice, getting swept away. I hear the sound of my own voice, asking you to stay."

I Knew You Were Trouble

"And the saddest fear comes creeping in that you never loved me, or her, or anyone, or anything."

All Too Well

"You call me up again just to break me like a promise. So casually cruel in the name of being honest."

The Last Time

"You wear your best apology but I was there to watch you leave."

Everything Has Changed

"Your eyes look like coming home."

Begin Again

"And for the first time what's past is past."

Come Back... Be Here

"This is falling in love in the cruelest way. This is falling for you and you are worlds away."

State of Grace (Acoustic Version)

"We learn to live with the pain. Mosaic broken hearts."

1989 Era

Blank Space

"Love's a game, wanna play?"

All You Had To Do Was Stay

"I've been picking up the pieces of the mess you made."

Wildest Dreams

"Nothing lasts forever but this is gonna take me down."

Clean

"The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing."

You Are In Love

"And you understand now why they lost their minds and fought the wars, and why I've spent my whole life trying to put it into words."

Each of these albums have helped me to get through things in my life but these songs specifically have at one time or another been the only songs I listened to for days at a time. These are the kind of songs that just speak to your soul. No matter your opinion on Taylor Swift, she is forever due the credit of how brave it is to honestly put your feelings out there for everyone to see. I have struggled with putting my feels out there for the people I love to see. I can't imagine doing it on a global scale.

Please Remember Me

I Wrote This For You  

Hello Lovelies. I'm Jordan Nicole :) This week I was feeling a bit blue so I did something to treat myself a little. We all need to treat ourselves to something every now and then. My spurge was to buy a book that has been one of my favorites for a long time. I first purchased it on my kindle one late night and then proceeded to read the entire thing that night. I can honestly say that reading it changed me. Every once in a while you find a book that just speaks to your soul in a way that nothing ever has before. This book was that for me. I have always wanted to own it in its physical form, but had never managed to purchase it for myself. 

I Wrote This For You isn't really a book. It is more like a collection of poems. The most eloquent and magnificent poems you will ever read. It isn't poetry in the classic sense of the term. You aren't going to read it and compare it to Walt Whitman, but it is something that has touched my soul. Along with each poem there is also a photograph. All of the photography was done by Jon Ellis, and it is the perfect touch to complete the book. The author chooses to go by the pin name, pleasefindthis. If you read I Wrote This For You, you will see that this pin name is very moving. 

I know that this isn't my typical post but I figured that if I have found this thing that is so amazing, then shouldn't I share it? I have personally read through this book six or seven times. I think that says something. It also happens to be poetry month, so this is a way to celebrate it :) 

In order to share a taste of how amazing it is, I thought I would include a handful of my favorite pages.

The Bibliography Of Strings
And you taught me what it feels like. And the how it feels to lose it. And you showed me who I wanted. And then who I wasn't. And you ticked every box. And then drew a line. And you weren't mine to begin with. And then not to end with. And you looked like everything I wanted. And then became something I hated. And you get thought of everyday. And then not in a good way. And you let me leave. And then you wish I'd stayed. And you almost killed me. But I didn't die.

The Point Of Contact
And then my soul saw you and it kind of went "Oh there you are. I've been looking for you."

The Ghost Train
And if you can't say yes, answer anyways. Because I'd rather live with the answer than die with the question.

The Fragile Arc
It may have just been a moment to you, but it changed every single one that followed for me.

The Needle And Ink
Look at you, like a new tattoo. Because I might not always have you but I'll have the feeling of you for the rest of my life.

The Forgotten Feeling 
I know there was something before you. I just can't remember what it was.

The End Of That 
If you thought that was our second chance, you're wrong. It was our last.

The Bridge From Solitude
Just like you mistook lust for love, you have mistaken being alone with loneliness. So I'm fine. Thank you for asking.

The Tales From Bar
You're just another story I can't tell anymore.

The Next Stop
Only because it's still so raw and real. Soon I'll just be a series of images that sometimes flash through your mind, when you least expect. And after that, only a few will stay. Then, one. A memory of a memory.

The City Rises And Falls 
You were a dream. Then a reality. Now a memory.

The Seconds Before Launch
This isn't me missing you. This is me missing the me I used to be. This isn't me.

The Fragments Belong Together
Things just break sometimes. Maybe we should blame that third personality we became, that personality we shared together. Maybe it's their fault because you're a good person and I think I'm a good person too. We just weren't made for this.

The Refracted Night 
You forget that, in the dark, we must move closer together in order to see each other. You were never alone.

The Rain Was Once A Cloud
Know someone as much as you can. Hold onto the moments that define them. Then when their body leaves, they won't.

Those are just some amazing segments from an even more amazing book. If you are a fan of observations about the world around you then I would say this is a must read for you. 

I Wrote This For You is available in both digital and physical forms. You can purchase it on amazon.com or from Barnes & Noble. 

Oh, Tonight

Setting Aside Your Pride 

Pride

(n.) a feeling of deep pleasure or satisfaction derived from one's own achievements.

Hello Lovelies. I'm Jordan Nicole :) I have learned the hard way, more than once, that pride can take something that is great and completely destroy it. Not only have I experienced this first hand, but I have watched people that I love, tear apart relationships because of their pesky pride. While I can admit that pride can be helpful in the sense of achieving your goals, I think that it ultimately hurts us more than it helps. How many times have you liked someone but refused to tell them because you wanted them to tell you first? What about disagreeing with the way someone is treating you, but not telling them because you think they should just know you are upset? These are examples of your pride getting in the way of what you want. 

This can sound a little bit crazy if you think about it. I mean, why would your own pride make you end up without things that you want? Shouldn't your brain be helping you get everything you've ever wanted, not be sabotaging you? Well, that just isn't the case. We self sabotage all of the time. At least I know I do, and I see if happening around me quite frequently. 

You see pride is the voice in the back of your head that makes you hold back your feelings in order to protect you from rejection or being wrong. You want to be right and make choices that lead to that result. What would happen if you tell that person that you like, that you like them so much that you can't think of anything else? Ultimately the worst thing that can happen is that they say they don't feel the same. Not so bad, right? Wrong. Everyone fears rejection. The annoying voice in your head is telling you to after all. It only wants you to do things that have a guaranteed positive outcome. 

I have personally missed out on so many wonderful opportunities out of the fear of being wrong or rejected. My pride gets in the way all the time. I just have this need to satisfy it. I am too proud to say how I am really feeling. 

I don't know about you, but I am tired of it. I am ready to go out into the world and say "This is me. Deal with it." to anyone or any situation that my pride is telling me to hold back from. What do I have to lose? Nothing. What do I have to gain? Everything. 

Lets all make a deal with ourselves to not hold back from what we want. 

Tell that guy that you are friends with that you want more. The worst that can come of it is the word NO. And I think that we should all be a little less afraid of that word. It isn't innately bad. It can lead to the most wonderful things in your life if you are willing to let it. 

So set aside your pride with me, and let's go try and get what we really want in life. You'd be amazed what a little less pride and a little more risk taking will do for your happiness. 

Birthday

A Message To My Dear Friend 

Hello Lovelies. I'm Jordan Nicole :) Today is a very special day in my life because it is a very special day in the life of one of my dearest friends. My lovely friend Amanda is turing 21 years old today. I just wanted to write an open letter to Amanda telling her how I feel about her reaching this step and how I feel about getting to be a part of it. 

My dear best friend, 

On this day I want to wish you the happiest of all birthdays! You are now 21 and old like the rest of us! Though this birthday is a milestone here in the US of A because you can now legally walk into a bar and actually be given a drink when you request one, I think that it is also a huge moment because you are now so much an adult that there is almost nothing holding you back from living your life the way you want to now. I think that you are a wonderfully extraordinary person and just love who you have grown to be. I am so bless to have you in my life and don't have to take a moments hesitation to say that you are not only my best friend but you are the best friend I have ever had. I remind myself often that it is rare to find a person that you just flow with. There is no other way for me to describe the way I feel about our relationship. It is simple, easy, calm. It flows the way a river does, sure and with a purpose. This is not to say it is ordinary though. Simple is a rarity in a friendship and I love that I can love you without worry or frustration. I feel that I have rambled more than a sufficient amount so I am going to stop myself from carrying on (which would be only to easy because I could speak of my love for you and our friendship endlessly and infinitely) and just leave you with a handful more statements. 

You are beautiful.

You are smart. 

You are strong.

You are a lovely soul.

You are a kind heart.

You are an open set of arms when they are needed most.

You are the ears often needed to hear, but also truly listen. 

You are clarity in a blurry world. 

You are blessed.

Mostly you are LOVED in this world.

By more hearts than mine but I will always know this to be true because I will always love you.

Happy, Happy Birthday Amanda Michelle Pettit.